1. I am 26, born 2 days after Valentines Day, so that would make me an Aquarius.
2. Everyone I have every really ever loved I’ve lost.
- My mother in ‘93 from heart/lung complications. I was 11 at the time.
- My brother in ‘03 from a blood clot that traveled to his lungs. This was 10 years after my mothers death and his funeral was a day before my 21st birthday. He was only 28 at the time of his death and my only sibling.
- My first love in 06 after over 6 years being in a relationship. I met him when I was 18 and we moved 6 months later. He was 12 years older than me and that relationship was very emotionally draining for me as well as some physical abuse but mostly emotional.
- My father in 07 (just last year) from aggressive cancer. Less than two weeks after he found out he had cancer he was gone. I was by his side when he took his last breath.
3. Because of all the lost I have experienced I think now I have abandonment issues.
4. I don’t talk to anyone from my family. No one goes out of their way to contact me or to see how I am doing so I say fcuk ‘em. I am basically in this world by myself.
6. For this reason, I fear being alone. I know how alone I am in this world but I don’t think it will really really hit me unless me and my bf broke up.
7. I have no close girlfriends. I am a loner. Secretly sometimes I do wish that I did have a couple of close girlfriends but I haven’t met any that have lived up to what I feel a true friend should be. *Sighs* Its a lost cause.
8. Looking at numbers 2-7 on this makes me think darn my life is truly pathetic and what am I living it for.
9. I have considered killing myself a lot but am too much of a wimp to do it.
10. I worry alot that I won’t ever be able to have kids. I see a lot of people I grew up with that have babies and I am like hummm I am surprised that I haven’t popped one out by now or at least got pregnant.
11. I am a very emotional person. You could say “Booo” to me and I’d cry haha but I am good at hiding my emotions from people I don’t know.
12. The reason I haven’t enrolled in college is because I am lazy
13. And I have no earthly idea what I would even go to school to become?
I'm just a crazy girl in love . I love being in love.
I'm a 26 years old aquarian black female who resides in Houston, Texas. No kids...haven't made up my mind on that one yet however I pray that God will bless me to be able to give birth to healthy beautiful babies one day if I so shall. I love to write, read, cook, shop, fuck, and cater to my man : ) I am a great listener, very supportive, laid back, and loyal. I value honesty above all else. I always say the worst truth is better than the best lie. I am a forgiving person although I admit I forget nothing. I am a lazy procrastinator who gets defensive and wears her heart on her sleeve. I have trust issues. You'll find me blogging about my life, my love life, my work life, and my wants and fears. My goal is to be in school by 2009. What I want to do with my life changes day to day. One moment I want to teach , the next social work, nursing. I am still trying to find me. I am a work in progress. Soo....."Don't Trip, He Ain't Finished With Me Yet!"
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