Sooo Sad

Well our Parakeet Snowie died today…May She R.I.P. … Well I am not an animal lover soo I really dont feel anything. Boo love animals and he gets all bombed about anyone passing. We have had soo many deaths this year I tell you. His oldest aunt passed away last month and I am surprised he didnt take it as hard as I thought he would.I basically just told him that since losing my brother and my mother I think my feelings are dead to death. When someone tells me “oh so and so passed” I am all like ..”oh really…sorry to hear that…so n e way” I dont think that I am heartless but you just move on. When my brother passed away in 2003 my world stopped. After losing my mother he was all I had left……dont want to go down that road of pain right now maybe another day…

Snowie was Boo bird..I swear he want to turn our home into a farm if he could  I love that big heart of his..its just funny how he try to be all hard and manly all the time and yet luv him some animals..but yea I had just got off the phone with him when I was on my last break and he called me not even 10 minutes later telling me “Baby I got some bad news “sounding all sad and stuff…I had the phone on speaker cuz I was at Amy desk and I didnt want anyone to see the phone to my ear…(no cell phone policy at work)…he like “Snowie died ” I was like “Are you serious?”..Wait a minute “Damn are you crying?”  Ohhh Shiit its not funny..then Amy stupid azz gonna bust out laffin so I had to hurry up and get the phone off speaker than I ran off the call center floor to talk to him. If he would have known she heard him he would have been p’d off at me. But he was like “Naw you just get attached to shiit when you feeding them everyday and thangs…you aint never fed her so you dont care” Yea I do..I care it is sad shiit we only had that damn bird for a few months. ..Then I get off the phone with him and go to my desk and Amy come rubbing on my back talking about “its gonna be okay…I just aint never seen no one get upset about a bird’ She stupid I swear…

It was raining soo freaking hard today and I sit by the window at work. I was gettin cursed out by this white biitch on the phone ..ignoring her.. while I looked at the cars tryin to ride thru the waters and getting stuck..*in my ear* “YOU BETTER GIVE ME MY MONEY BACK OR I AM CALLING THE ATTORNEY GENERAL” Betta??? I felt like telling that women I aint betta do shiit but stay black and die…I swear this job kills me….I am like shiit I need to be at home cuddled up wit my man. I love the rain, but that lightnening was frightening….the computers went off for a second and everybody was like “Yes” then it came back on and then its “No”  I had to be careful driving home today because my car aiint got no breaks in the rain. I got in my first wreck last week. Hit this mexican biitch from behind and was soo scared to get home and tell Boo and he surprised me and was like ” I am just glad that you are o.k.  Not his “Blue” He didnt even want to check out the damage first.

Boo did kinda piss me off though cuz when I got home he didnt know what to do with the bird I was like damn I thought you would have took care of that by the time I got home because hell I didnt know what to do with it either. I asked him “Baby if something happen to Sunday (my cat) what we gonna do with her ?” Damn if something happen to my cat I would be dev-a-sta-ted..Man that cat gets on my nerves but it would be quiet around here without her. …She like my baby and Yea now I know I was wrong for suggesting he throw it away. …Boo looked at me like he wanted to say damn biitch do you have a heart…I wonder about my heart sometimes…but hell we aint got no back yard ..soo we ended up burying it in the apartments by the pool… I was like the maintenance men gonna end up digging it up prolly n e way when they do the gardening but hey we tried  I just wonder what made her croak. Boo saying “Shiit I need to stay away from animals ..thats the second one that done croaked on me…

Until next time