Archive for May, 2008

31
May
08

Relationships r just that way I guess

So B kinda made me mad this morning by not taking me to work.

I left early one day this week from work so I had to make it up today by going in on a Saturday (eww!) from 8-3. He did tell me last nite that he had to get to work early so he wouldn’t be able to drop me off I’d have to take the bus because he had to leave the house at 5. Yes he did say that. But….

I woke up this morning, looked at the clock it read 5:30 and he was not in the bed with me. I thought maybe he had left without saying goodbye. Never that. I found him in the music room on his beats. He was burning a cd to listen to while driving. I gave him a kiss on the lips, went into the bathroom to get ready for work. I was going to try to hurry up and get done so I could ride with him so I would not have to catch the bus to work. I was just going to go in early instead.  I had just finished my makeup and all I had left to do was to brush my hair and put on some clothes.

It was already 6 when I came out of the restroom and he was still on the computer burning his cd. Ok. I am like are you going to be able to take me to work? He looks at me with that irratated look that I hate for him to have for me when he says he doesn’t look at me that way ever. He’s a lie. Why the irratation??? I hate anyone looking at me like I am putting them out of their way. Pride. I have a lot of it and absolutely hate asking people to do anything for me. Yes, even my man.

He tells me he is about to leave now. I tell him it will only take me 15 minutes to finish doing what I have to do. I can tell he really does not want to take me and I am like…why? Damn my job is not that much out of your way and 15 minutes more for your woman  is not going to kill you. Hell you should try to avoid me (your girl) from taking the bus if you can neways. But yea he’s like ok I will but it’s gonna make me be late to my first move and plus I am going to get home later and yadda yadda yadda..just a bunch of damn excuses.

15 minutes gonna do all that?? Come on. I probably could have rushed it and been done in 10.

I was like ok never mind. He thought my little 15 minutes left of getting ready was going to put him out of his way so be it.

So he left without saying goodbye mind you. Whatever.

I texted him after thinking about it for a minute after he left :

“That is messed up that you could not wait 15 more minutes for me to get dressed” and left it at that. He texted me back some bullshit about his move being at 7 and he had to go. Ok

I don’t know maybe I could have been more understanding, but oh I thought you were “here to make my life easier” <—-his words

Well darn a simple ride to work is inconveniencing you?

I hate how I am in relationships. I easily start resenting people because I tend to put the person I am with over everything else including myself. If he needed a ride I don’t care if he made me 30 minutes late I would have taken him. Point is he is his own boss in a way so if he get to a move late no one is there supervising or tripping. Granted I do like my way but it balances out because I am a people pleaser. I like to please those I love and when he doesn’t do something for me I get like this “woe is me” “all I got is myself” “can’t depend on nobody” syndrome.

Yea. I wanted for him to know I was upset so I cut off my phone. This nigger be too busy to text me most times. But he been texting me every hour on the hour all day.

“Baby I miss you”

“Baby I love you”

“I hope your day going good’

He knows I was upset. And I ignored everyone of them texts and missed a couiple of his calls too. Yea I am maybe overreacting a little bit like I usually do. But shows him right. Hell. He should have been texting “you are right I could have waited 15 minutes and took you to work”

I get home before 4 everyday so I keep the phone by me waiting for him to call or text. Fuck him today. He go crazy blowing me up when …oh no… normally he too busy carrying couches by hisself and trying to move the freaking world  to text me how’s he doing. He has gotten better tho.

But when I worry less about him it forces me to take better care of me and thats how it should be. Gotta remember that. Its soo easy to lose myself in a man and I forget to take care of myself.

I got off work. I kept that ringer off. No phones allowed at work so we gotta keep it out of sight. Went and got my eyebrows waxed, took myself out to eat (to Wendy’s lol), and bought me some new shit. Gotta take care of self.

I can be pretty mean sometimes.

24
May
08

My Life My Life My Life My Life

It has been awhile since I have truly been this happy. I am letting my guard down more and more each day but still not all the way down because thats when things start fuccing up right? I really love this man and I used to always say darn everyone getting blessed being happy when is it my turn to be happy. I know I have been blessed being able to have a job from 4 years, not going hungry, having a roof over my head and clothes on my back. I am happy for that. All this not having no one to depend on but THE MAN up above. I have never had to ask my family for jack. My baby is like stop being soo damn independent (even tho thats what he says he loves about me). Its hard sometimes to let go and just BE A WOMAN. I have been the man and the woman in the relationship for soo long I forget I got someone that takes care of business and does it VERY WELL.

But HE really blessed me when he removed someone from my life that meant no good for me not only that but replaced him with someone that is devoted to pleasing me and I do the same for him. Thats my heart right there. Everyone in bad relationships that feel like they don’t have the strength to let it go should keep praying to God about the situation because I know what its like to feel like you are “STUCK” in a bad situation. I have been there and I know what it feels like and its not a good feeling to just takes someones bullshiit disrespecting you and not appreciating you when you really don’t have to take that so why do we become soo complacent. Do what you do and find someone that appreciates you for you and all that jazz. Why do you and get stepped on by an ungrateful mutherfuccer. I fear sometimes getting “STUCK” again but with my honey he is soo respectful and patient with me I really feel there is nothing to fear. Plus Id like to think I am little bit stronger this time but Love makes me weak. We get along great enjoy each others company have fun with one another and we both know how to be a big kid and then get serious. I would do anything for that man.

In other news my job is making yet another change. Aint that a biitch. This company lays off people more than a little bit. It has decided all of a sudden it doesn’t need its sales dept so has decided to do away with it so they are going to FIRE the sales dept and let them get re-hired again at get this 9.00 an hour freak WTH. Instead of doing sales they are going to be doing what I do which is mainly customer service. Ain’t that something. Aren’t I glad that I transferred from sales to customer service so I would not have to deal wit that bs. This company I swear. One of my best friends has been with the company for 5 years and she is going to be reduced to 9.00 an hour and she will lose her seniority and this girl has 4 kids. That is not funny. So they offered them a severance package instead if they don’t want to do that and will give them she said 1000 for each year that she has been there. Hummmm…..ok? But she says she is just soo fed up with the company and all of the changes that they keep doing that she is going to just take the 5 grand and look for something else. Can’t say that I blame her. If I was put in that position that is hard and scary to make a change but hey I have been with the company for 4 years and I know I deserve way more that 9.00 dollars and hour for all that I put up with. Hell I should be making more that I am making at this moment but a year ago they decided they wanted to take a dollar away from everyone freak

With every change this company makes I just take it like a soldier or a little bitch whichever way you see it and roll with the punches. I have seen soo many ppl get fired from the company over some of the most silliest stuff and I have survived, but I be damn if I allow them to play with my money again just because The company decides they want to lower their starting pay rate to 9.00 an hour and is trying there damndest to figure out away to pay their loyal employees who have been there for years what they pay their new hires. Get outta here. That is ass backwards. I have been with the company for 4 years . I got all that time invested and you gonna play me like that. I feel this is not over they definitely got something more up their sleeve. Like maybe lowering my dept to 9.00 dollars an hour. I . THINK. NOT. I am not going to worry about it. I have been thru it all and will still come out on top and my girl got something better that God has for her to do to .

17
May
08

I caught the neighbor gettin serviced haha

Yesterday I got a good laugh. I was at the computer reading blogs minding my own when I heard someone talking outside of my living room window. I heard this person say “no one stays over here” so of course I get off the computer and take a peek out the window and what I saw was the next door neighbor and some unknown girl going inside of the privacy fence of the townhome in the building next to me. The old lady that was staying there move out last week so I am intrigued because this particular neighbor doesn’t stay there so I wondered what he is doing.

I live in townhomes but they are made like a four-plex. Its about a total of 10 four-plex buildings in my complex with 5 buildings on each side of the driveway. There are a total of 4 townhomes in each building 2 in the front and 2 in the back. I live in the back of my building which to me is better because I have kind of like a small backyard where I have a patio set and my flowers out in back. The townhomes in the front don’t have much of a yard so anyways the neighbor I am speaking of lives in fourplex . He lives in the apartment next to me.

View from living room window

So yea I am looking and I am like ok whats going on? So he closed the fence where that apartment is so I couldn’t see anything and I’m like “damn” and automatically run upstairs to my bedroom to get a look outside of my upstairs window looking down on them. This is fun! It was kinda tricky because the blinds of my bedroom window were already open and half raised so I had to look quick and then duck back in case they saw me. And OMG this dude was gettin it! I saw him braced back on his heels both hands on his pubic area rocking back and forth and this unknown girl was down on the ground going to work on his pecker. How cute!! He was really into it and I was in shock and could not believe my eyes and what I was seeing. It was exciting because I got a little bit of voyeur in me. I tried to be slick and raise down the blinds and close them and take another look but they had already stopped ….got dammit!! I wondered if he saw me and if I made them stop.

Soo I ran back downstairs to the living room window again and they were laughing coming out of the back and he went his way and she went hers. She actually cut thru my backyard and went out the fence in back where one of the pieces of wood is missing. To me that was soo ranDUMB. I text my boyfriend to tell him what I saw. He knows the dude because he buys green from him from time to time. I was thinking was the girl sucking his dick for some weed. My bf text me back “you’re lying”. I don’t think he believes me because he was like why didn’t they just go to his house. I don’t know.

The neighbor already has a girlfriend. They moved in about 6 months ago and I met her the day she moved in. Cute girl. She was pregnant and looked like she was about to drop. I met her and her mother. That was the last time I saw her and then I began seeing this dude which turned out to be her boyfriend. I heard from my boyfriend that the girl had a warrant for her arrest and her mother turned her in so she has been in jail all this time. The boyfriend kicked the mother out and has just been staying there waiting for his girlfriend to come home. From what I understand it doesn’t look like he works unless selling green is his full time job and he has pretty much been being a hoe the whole time that his girl has been away which brought up a great conversation with me and my boyfriend.

I wanted to know if I ever got locked up (never gonna happen) would he be a hoe like the neighbor. He said “naw..hell naw!” I looked at him like “really” I always challenge him to get the truth out or as he say to make him say something that he doesn’t mean. Then he was like we would have to discuss it depending on how long you are locked up. I wonder if the neighbor and his girlfriend discussed him being a hoe and then not only that bringing other girls into his house. Thats kinda trifling.

But yea I got my laugh for today and just wanted to share. Until next time….




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