On Saturday, Bj left to get his hair braided from a woman that lives down the street from me and when he made it back we pretty much lazed around the house the whole day. He bought some “green” from one of the guys that was there getting his hair braided as well so we pretty much spent the whole day Saturday and Sunday getting blazed. It was kinda bunk though. We usually get “the green” from Southpark but to avoid travelling that far and because we’ve been looking for a connection on my side of town we went ahead with this guy. I was just buzzing it didn’t really get me like I like to feel.
Sunday we must have had sex at least 3 times before Bj left. My pussy is a little sore but satisfied. It’s like I can feel ole girl smiling down there LOL. I am kind of upset with myself that I got soo weak minded and couldn’t stick by what I said but I am only human. I guess because the past few weeks have been kinda lonely for me and when he started kissing on my neck it became hard for me to say no.
Bj got up to leave around 7 and I walked him to the door. Usually he is the one that asks me if he could stay another night but he didn’t and before he walked out I was surprised that I ended up asking him if he would stay. He paused for a long time before answering yes and I guess I got upset that he took soo long to answer that I was like thats okay just go ahead and go.
Right now my head and feelings are real discombobulated. I don’t know whether I should just leave Bj alone since obviously we can’t be friends. I mean we could but that would be really hard for me because I have feelings for him *sigh*. I don’t know what to do.
I blame it on the dick that has my head screwed up right now. When I think about me and Bj that old SWV song comes to my mind. “I get soo weak in the knees. I can hardly speak. I lose all control and …….”
All them girls could sing hunh?
Until Next Time…